I am really nervous about leading at church on Sunday

and when I am nervous, I procrastinate and cannot think.

There will be lots of people there, including some extended family that has never seen me at church, or even been to my church. We are having special guests to do the sermon, which is in celebration of Bodhi day, and the event has been highly publicized. My service plan isn't even finished yet and I still have to burn the music CD for it. The music that I need to burn the CD is at the church, not here.

Desi is sick, which is both making it difficult for me to work, and making it easier. Since he is sick, I can feel less guilt for plugging him into Elmo's World AGAIN. But then again, since he is sick, he is whiny and I don't want to take him out into the freezing cold to get that damn CD.

Dealing with stress is definitely my weakness. I don't deal with it well and get overwhelmed so easily. I have learned a few tips over the years, but ultimately the edginess is still there. If I ever took the time to read this whole blog and count the number of posts that were just different versions of, "OMG I AM SO STRESSED," I bet we would be at 50% stressed out capacity.

Stress.